Being able to zip-up a previously overly-snug pair of skinny jeans is a great feeling!
Despite feelings of doubt, insecurity, cravings, and heightened emotions, I have made it through the first week of my 120-day challenge! Some of you are probably thinking, “Um…it’s only been a week..”, but let me tell you, I lost 5 pounds over the week, and water weight or not, it’s 5 pounds less than what was there before. And any movement to the lower digits is a good move in my book!
I honestly had some fears as I started this. The idea of 120 days hit me on the first day as I headed to a hotel lobby in Canada for breakfast and realized how limited my options were. And I was starving. I was afraid that I wasn’t going to be able to do it. I was afraid that I would fail. I was afraid that I had put my goals out in public for everyone to see and I might fall short. Bottom line…I as terrified.
On top of those fears and insecurities, old wounds and mantras crept their way to the surface. “You’re not enough”, “You are fat”, “You are a failure”, “You have no self-control”, “No one will love you if you look like that”. They brought with them pain and more fears. I began to see the direct correlation between those things and my body. All I wanted to do was cry. And I did.
But then I began to write. And listen. And believe. And heal.
I made it through the week emotionally exhausted, but feeling fresh and clear, like some sort of fog had lifted. I know that there are still a ton of things that I will need to work through as I continue down this path, but I am renewed and ready.
After 6 days of discipline, I made it to Saturday (my cheat day), and started off my day with donuts, coffee, and a stomachache. But they were so good. In all honesty, I only wanted my cheat day to be over. I wanted to go back to the healthy food that had given me so much energy and life. It’s amazing what clean food and no sugar will do to your overall well-being!
I’m excited to see what Week 2 will hold for me not just in the weight department, but in the mental and spiritual health realm as well. Keep checking in and follow my progress! Don’t forget that I’m also doing this with my friend Jess, and she is blogging her experience and results as well, so follow her!