I will say it over and over and over probably until the day I die: how has time gone by so quickly?
Today, you are turning 2.
I keep repeating the number over and over in my head…sometimes I even say it out loud…but it doesn’t seem real. Even though I am to the point where I can’t remember a time when you weren’t in our lives, I can’t believe that you’re 2! I mean, for crying out loud, wasn’t it just yesterday that you were being laid on my chest for the first time?!
So as I dry my tears and eat another piece of your birthday cake, I just wanted to take a few moments to tell you how special you are.
This past year has been a blur for so many reasons. So many changes. Shortly before we celebrated you being a year, we found out I was pregnant with your sister. Shortly after that, we moved out of our house. The house we brought you home to. The house that kept us warm during sleepless nights. The house that you learned to crawl in. The house that you took your first steps in. The house that we learned what real love is in. We packed up our things, said our goodbyes, and moved. Then we moved again. Then we moved again. Over 4 months we pulled our suitcases through rental after rental as we worked and waited on our new home to be finished.
You were such a good sport about it all. You loved to put on your overalls and work boots, grab your tiny plastic hammer, and “help” daddy as he worked so hard on our home. We watched you come into being 1 as you learned more and more words. It wouldn’t take long for choppy sentences to form and for you to actually seem like you understood all of the things that we were talking to you about.
We have watched your love for anything with an engine grow exponentially! You talk all day long about cars, trains, trucks, and planes. I love to watch you create your own world for them as you drive them around the house and over your sisters body. Your ability to create and dream is endless and I love to see you do just that! Never let go of your wild and free creativity.
As each month passed and we got closer to welcoming your sister into our lives, we told you about her and you would “listen” to my belly. You talked all the time about “baby” and “my sissy”. When she finally arrived, you came into the hospital room with your tiny gift and the biggest smile on your face. You couldn’t wait to meet her, and the hug you gave her melted me. You kissed her so sweetly and I let the tears fall silently from my face. When we brought her home, you would check on her, hug her, and bring her your toys. Even now she smiles the biggest smile when you come into the room. You are an excellent big brother! Love her and protect always.
You are wild.
You are mischievous.
You are brilliant.
You are creative.
You are handsome.
You are sweet.
You are gentle.
You are kind.
Don’t let anyone tell you anything different because it simply won’t be true. I love you so much, Jude. More than you will ever know. My heart still skips a little when you curl up next to me and let me hold you. I cherish those moments as they get farther and farther apart.
You have taught me what it really means to love and be loved. You have taught me what it means to sacrifice. You have taught me what strength looks like. You have taught me what real joy is. Thank you for that. Thank you for loving deeply and freely. Thank you for every kiss…every hug…every smile. They are the heartbeat of my day.
I completely and totally adore you today and tomorrow and forever.